أبكي و أبتسم

بكيت
بكت عيناي أبرد الدموع
بكى قلبي أسرع النبضات
بكت ابتسامتي أقسى الجروح
بكت ذاكرتي أجمل الحكايات

بكيت
بكيت حنان أدفا من فجر صيف
بكيت دروب مشيتها ورود
بكيت خيالا أطيب و أجمل طيف
بكيت قرب شخص ودود

ابتسمت
حين أراها ابتسمت
نظرة حنونة بعد عناق حنون

حين أكتبها ابتسمت
قصيدة عجزت معانيها عن وصفها

حين أسمعها ابتسمت
نغمات تترنّم جمّعَت كل الفنون

حين أرسمها ابتسمت
صورة تصيب قلبي بالجنون

حين أذكرها ابتسمت
ذكرى كتبت أشعاري لها في كل الركون

و إن رأيتها بكيت
اعذروني!
فهي ابتسامتي الضائعة
و وجدتها

ill always miss U

Here comes the day
Written for us to obey
Its God’s will my sister
U r leaving next semester

Don’t u ever wonder
How would I continue?
The only thing I could do
Without u i easily surrender

I give up honey
I just can’t face it
The fact that I’ll b lonely
And take life responsibly

U r the one full of life
U r the one cheering us up
When getting screwed up

Thinking of life without u
Breeds my fears
I already started missing u
With cold tears
I shout out and cry for u

Love u my beloved sis
U r the one ill always miss

أصيل

ما تعرف ولا أظن راح تدري
اللي سويته فيني ما هو بشي(ن) قليل..

أنت جننتني و بعت عمري بترف
أبيعني و أهون على نفسي لك أميل...

ياللي خليتني أهاذيبك بين الخلايق
احتويتني بإحساسك و أنت نعم الخليل...

صرت أمشي صوبك وأنا في مكاني
أحكي مع الناس و كلامي عنك يعيل...

أنا ما أقدر أحكم فكري ولساني
أنت قلبي و أنت كلي وعندي الدليل...

دليلي أكتب لك وأنا ماني بشاعرة
سوّيت منّي أشخاص بعد ما كنت كليل...

شاعرة ساهرة طموحة و حالمة
كلها بعدك اليوم صارت لي ظليل...

أحن و أشتاقلك و أتمنى شوفك
حساسة أنا من عرفتك دمعي يسيل...

أبكي على أيامي الماضية و أندم
على كل لحظة كنت فيها قربك سليل...

على أمل دايم من أجلك راح أكون
أصبر لشوفك و أتحمل حالي العليل...

لكن حط في بالك أنك ملكتني لنّك
بإحساسك الصادق أعرف انّك أصيل...

Why..?

WHY..??
Why is it like this..?
Why do they want me to confess..?
Why do they always insist..?
Why do they accuse me
And want me to be someone else..?

WELL…
Let me tell u this…
I know my wills…
And believe in my prophet…
All I wanna be is the strongest…
Even if they don’t c me as honest…

I’m who I am…
If u don’t believe damn…
I believe I’m hot…
I believe I’m sexy…
And I’m sure ure not
The one u r trying to show me…
U r only a 2 faced BUTT!
With bad and cheap attitude !
So u better keep Ur blabber mouth SHUT!
Never mess around baby…

..another me..

For how long am I supposed to stay?
Why do you always leave me hanging?
Between truth and false..
Between light and shade..
Between hell and heaven..

Let me stand for my heart..
Its been quite for long..
You might be thinking smart..
That I’ll come back with a song..

Let me say for once..
I am sick of this..
I am sick of trying..
For it no longer helps..
You will never understand me..
You wont find another me..

You refused to get it..
Well then just forget it..
You refused to believe me..
I guess its time to leave me..

In fact, its time for me..
To leave you..

Without me, I know u’ll suffer..
What to do, to me, its better..
Ill say it again and forever..

You will never find another me..

ذكريات بلا نهايات

أَلا يا ليت الوقت يعود
و معه تعود الذكريات

أضيء بها الليالي السود
و أرويها لنفسي روايات

أرسمها بذهني كالورود
صورة إطارها أجمل الحكايات

حوار لم يمسّه برود
بدفء الود بنيت العلاقات

قصة مليئة بأبرأ الوعود
ضاعت بين أقدم الكتابات

شخصياتها أصيبت بالجمود
نسيَت قيمة أثمن اللحظات

فرّقها البعد و لعِب دور الحَقود
و الشوق صار أمل الجهات

غدَت آمالها كالسراب الوَدود
كلما أدْنو أحضنها عدّة مرات

حين أُدرِك أن ليس لها وجود
أعود مجدّداً للذكريات

حلم التّلاقي هو الوقود

يوقد الأمل يُبعد النهايات

..just feelings..

I was curious!
I was confused!
I was hesitant!
I was afraid!

To hear anything about u
To know anything about u
To see or even dream about u...

I knew I’d be sticking to u no matter what
I knew I’d be hanging around with u all time…

Help!

I’m trapped!
I’m stuck!
In Ur zone I became sapped!
Sick of my ill-fated luck!

I gradually feel it
Losing u became incredibly easy
Like a very heavy ocean wave
Taking u and bringing u back speedily…

Smacking my dreams and pulling u away
Slipping off my hands became Ur job
No… I’m not accusing u no way
And my only job is to sob
Shedding tears is now my only thing I do
Whenever I feel I’m about to lose u…

I sense the fear living me
Panic steps marching like solders
Without mercy attacking me
To put u between my hidden folders
Threatening me and ordering me
To pack u with my unfulfilled dreams
Fold Ur words and pix to push them under my bed
To become one of my doomed stories
If u were concealed with my fated dreams grid
Doing that breeds my worries…

Rethinking of it without sub-thoughts
Thinking of how my life would be:
How would I drink? How would I eat?
How would I pray? How would I sleep?
How would I speak? How would I smile?
How would I look? How would I live?

Tell me my friend,
Answer me…
Persuade me… Convince me…

Make me happy without u
Make me look at people around me
Make me sleep, eat, drink
Make me pray for something other than for u
Make me smile
Make me believe in life
Make me trust u to any further extent
Coz I became doubtful
That u r going to be there
Beside me supporting me
To find something fair…

Without you,

I see the sun disappearing
I hear music hushing
Greenery off my eyes vanishing
I feel life is already fading turning black
My breath barely evaporating
Roaming in my little sac
Hidden under the patient sealing
Tiny hopes fighting in their shack
My only hopes to see u again
Are now stronger than my hope to survive…

The moment I imagine me with u ever after
Hiding under your warm shade
Holding your hand like a petite aster
By then I’d know my illness only aid…

Its u my friend…
Its u who cures all me…
Its u who I should smile for…
Its u who I should pray for…
Pray to be ever after with u...

Its u that I must be with

..My Shadow..

Looking at my shadow down my feet…
Thinking and trying to save my dieing beat…
In my heart that’s been so quite…
Holding my feelings not to burst…

Trying to keep my love a secret…
Yet I can no longer help it…
The Feelings I kept for so long…
I just can’t control it must admit…
Waiting is no good anymore…

Why do I think it can’t last?
Why do I know that it won’t?
Why is it always my heart?
Judging whether I’m in love or not…
Why can’t I handle it myself?
Why do I wait for so long?

Then I end up lost, looking for the right time...
To tell you how much I rhyme...
Just to get some feelings out…

My hand always spends the night…
Writing something I feel every moment…
My papers do the talk while I’m silent…
Fighting with my in love heart…
Collecting the right words to write...

I know that I’m fooling my self…
I look for these words when I know where they are…
But I try to find something else…
To cover these right words…

Words ill never find alternate for…
Words people always use…
Words I hear seven twenty four…
Never knew how much they mean, until I fell into them…
I fell deep inside that…
I can’t get my self out…

So, maybe if I told u what I exactly feel…
U would then get me out of love…
Or leave me drown in love…

Hey, at last with my part I’m done…
It’s your turn now to respond…
Say what u feel about things I just said…
Actually, things my HEART just felt…

..i am the ONE u adore..

Looking at the door
Hoping ull be there
Standing at the side
Waiting to decide
Just knock, my heart is open
Whether u come in or hide
But ill be waiting for u Ill be waiting for ever
Ill be strong and hopeful that there will be a summer
Where u knock my door… And tell me I’m the 1 u adore

Hey!! Here you are!
I knew there was a hope
I knew this day was gonna come
I knew ill have the chance to tell u
Come to me honey and hold my hand
Let’s just talk or even have a walk
Let’s just think of what brought us together
Isn’t it strange how we easily got better?


Last summer I heard your voice
This summer I saw you and I knew your choice
It is true I am the one u adore!!

..My Beloved Partner..

Come here let’s run by the beach…
I talk and you give a speech…
We share laughter together…
Looking at each other…
Remembering how we got better…
From the rumors said all about us…
People say & try to make a fuss…
We fought together and by their bus...
We waved with great smiles…
Leaving them staring with surprise…
Poor them… they thought we split…
They knew nothing not even a bit…
I wish they knew your smile effect…
On my heart driving it crazy…
I wish they saw your passionate look…
When with you I’m safe & happy…
I wish they feel your warm touch…
When I feel lost and lonely…
I wish they get to see you the way I do…
Sweeping me away from their world…
Taking me far above the blue sky…
Holding me between your wings…
I wish they knew how it is to fall…
In an angel’s pure and brave soul…

You are my family…
You are my world…
With sweet embrace you fill me…
With great hug you calm me…
You are always there for me…
You are the first true friend…
In my eyes you are my hero…
In my dreams you are my angel…
In my life you are my only pal…
In real life you are my beloved partner…